“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” Psalm 139:13-14

Growing up autistic was not easy. Like many autistic people, I asked big questions.

Why am I different?

Why would God create me this way?

If God is real, why can’t I see him?

How can I believe in something I can’t prove with my own eyes?

These are honest questions, and they deserve honest answers. Today, I know two truths that

have completely changed my life.

First, my autism is not a mistake.

Second, my greatest identity isn’t that I’m autistic; it’s that I belong to Jesus Christ.

God Doesn’t Make Mistakes

For many years, society viewed autism as something that needed to be fixed. While therapies and supports can help autistic people navigate the world, autism itself is not evidence that someone is less valuable.

The Bible teaches something radically different from what the world often believes. Every human being is created in the image of God (Genesis 1:27). That includes autistic people.

Psalm 139 says that God knew us before we were born. He intentionally formed every part of us. It doesn’t say, “Everyone except those with disabilities.” It says we are fearfully and wonderfully made.

That doesn’t mean life will be easy. Autism can bring real challenges. Sensory overload, anxiety, communication differences, executive functioning difficulties, and misunderstanding from others are very real experiences for many autistic people, including me, but challenges do not mean God made a mistake, in fact, throughout the Bible, God often worked through people the world overlooked. Moses struggled with speaking. David was the youngest shepherd boy. Gideon believed he was the weakest. The Apostle Paul spoke about his own weaknesses. God has always used ordinary, imperfect people to accomplish extraordinary things.

My Identity Is Found in Christ

Autism explains part of how my brain works, it does not define my worth, my worth comes from the One who created me, before anyone called me autistic, God called me His creation, before anyone misunderstood me, God knew me completely, before anyone accepted me, God loved me, nothing about autism changes the incredible truth that every person is deeply loved by their Creator.

“How Can I Believe in Someone I Can’t See?”

This may be one of the biggest questions for many autistic people.

Many of us value logic, evidence, patterns, and consistency. We don’t simply accept ideas because someone tells us to. We ask questions because we genuinely want to know what is true, I don’t believe God is offended by those questions, and Jesus certainly wasn’t.

One of His own disciples, Thomas, said he wouldn’t believe Jesus had risen from the dead unless he saw the evidence for himself, Jesus didn’t shame Thomas, he met him where he was, which tells me something beautiful about God, he welcomes honest seekers.

Faith Isn’t Blind

Some people think Christianity requires believing without evidence, but that’s not what convinced me.

Jesus is one of the most studied figures in history. Even many historians who are not Christians agree that Jesus lived in first-century Judea, was crucified under Pontius Pilate, and that His followers sincerely believed they encountered Him alive after His crucifixion.

The earliest Christians didn’t become wealthy or powerful because they followed Jesus, many were imprisoned, many suffered, and many died refusing to deny what they believed they had witnessed. People can die for something they mistakenly believe to be true, but people rarely choose persecution for something they know they invented.

The Bible itself was written by dozens of authors over many centuries, yet it tells one unified story of God’s plan to redeem humanity through Jesus Christ. Its historical setting, fulfilled prophecies, and enduring message have led millions, including scholars, scientists, former skeptics, and ordinary people, to conclude that it deserves serious consideration. Faith isn’t checking your brain at the door, it’s following the evidence wherever it leads.

Things We Believe Without Seeing

Think about it for a moment, you can’t see gravity, you see what gravity does.

You can’t see the wind, you see trees moving because of it.

You can’t see love, yet love changes lives every single day.

We often accept the reality of things because we see their effects.

In my own life, I have seen God’s fingerprints, I’ve experienced peace that didn’t make sense during anxious moments, I’ve watched doors open that I never could have opened on my own, I’ve seen lives transformed through forgiveness, grace, and hope, I’ve witnessed God’s faithfulness in ways that are difficult to explain by coincidence alone, Those experiences don’t replace evidence, but they have strengthened my confidence that God is real and actively at work.

Jesus Changed Everything

Finding out I was autistic answered many questions about how my mind works, finding Jesus answered the most important question of all.

Who am I?

I am a sinner saved by grace, I am loved, I am forgiven, I am never alone.

Following Jesus didn’t make my autism disappear, I still experience sensory overload, I still become anxious, I still misunderstand social situations, but now I know I don’t walk through those struggles by myself.

Jesus walks with me.

If You’re Skeptical…

I understand. You don’t have to pretend to believe. You don’t have to ignore your questions. In fact, I encourage you to ask them.

Read the Gospel of John. Read the Gospel of Luke. Compare Jesus with every other worldview.

Ask yourself: Who was Jesus? Why did His followers give everything for Him? Why has His message changed lives across every culture for over 2,000 years?

Then do something simple.

Pray, even if you aren’t sure God exists, you don’t need fancy words, just be honest.

Say something like: “God, if You are real, I want to know the truth. Show me who You are. Help me understand. If Jesus truly is Your Son, help me believe.” If God is real, He is fully capable of answering an honest seeker.

Jesus Himself said, “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you.” (Matthew 7:7)

A Message to the Church

The Church should be one of the safest places for autistic people, not because we’re perfect, but because Jesus welcomed those whom others overlooked. Churches should strive to understand sensory needs, communicate clearly, embrace different ways of thinking, and recognize the unique gifts autistic people bring to the Body of Christ. Autistic people are not projects, we are not problems to solve, we are people created in God’s image, gifted by the Holy Spirit, and called to serve His Kingdom. Sensory rooms should be added to the church so we have a space to go to when we are overwhelmed.

My Prayer for You

If you’re autistic and you’ve ever felt forgotten. God sees you. If you’ve ever felt like you don’t belong. Jesus invites you.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your life has purpose, it does.

Your diagnosis does not define your destiny, your past does not determine your future, your struggles do not diminish your value.

The cross of Jesus declares your worth.

My prayer is not simply that you understand autism differently, my prayer is that you come to know Jesus personally.

Because while autism is part of your story, Jesus wants to become the Author of your eternity. He knows every thought you’ve ever had, he understands every struggle you’ve faced, he loves you more deeply than you can imagine.

And His invitation has never changed:

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and you are deeply loved.

And there is a Savior who knows you completely and still chose the cross for you, his name is Jesus Christ.

One Last Thing

Before you close this page, I want to ask you one question, if Jesus really is who He claimed to be, would you want to know Him?

Not religion, not traditions, not what other people have told you.

Jesus.

As someone who is autistic, I know what it feels like to search for answers. I know what it’s like to feel misunderstood, isolated, anxious, or as though you don’t quite fit into the world around you. Maybe you’ve spent years trying to understand yourself. I did too.

But one day in my teenage years I realized something remarkable. While I was searching for answers, God had been pursuing me all along. I was confused and asked God in my mind, “WHY AM I DIFFERENT THAN OTHERS? WHY DO I GET BULLIED, WHY DO I GET TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF, WHY ME?” but after getting baptized, and seeing signs like passing the dreaded drivers license test, passing the exit exam on my last attempt, and helping me survive a major spine surgery, I knew God was real and I want to help you know Jesus better.

Listen, Jesus doesn’t ask you to have every question answered before coming to Him. He asks you to take one step toward Him, you don’t have to clean up your life first, you don’t have to become a different person, you don’t have to stop being autistic, you simply come, exactly as you are.

The Gospel isn’t about what you’ve done for God. It’s about what God has already done for you through Jesus Christ. Nearly 2,000 years ago, Jesus willingly gave His life on the cross to pay the price for our sins. Three days later, He rose from the grave, defeating sin and death so that everyone who places their trust in Him can have forgiveness, hope, purpose, and eternal life.

That invitation includes you. No matter your diagnosis, no matter your doubts, no matter your past, no matter how many questions you still have, if your heart is searching for truth, ask Him to reveal Himself to you, read the Gospel of John, talk to Him honestly, keep seeking, and learning, because I believe you’ll discover what I did: The greatest answer to life’s biggest questions isn’t found in a philosophy, a diagnosis, or a set of rules. It’s found in a Person. His name is Jesus, and He has been waiting for you all along.